I dont think anyone really understands how much compliments actually mean to me like I usually brush them off with a joke and a quick “thank you” but really I remember compliments for forever so if you’ve ever complimented me or done something nice for me thank you so much.

I loved you. And here’s a news flash: you protected me from nothing. I spent time missing you, wondering what the hell I did wrong to make you do that to me. I thought everything was my fault. And even when I got over that, I still knew what I’d lost: you. You were the one who made me laugh when I had a crappy day. You were the one I vented to when I was mad, the one I shared all the good stuff with. You always knew when I was full of crap, and you always called me on it. You were smart, you were funny, you were good-looking. You were mine. And then, suddenly, you weren’t. I knew every day exactly what I’d lost, and I missed you every day. That’s the big favor you did for me. Thanks so much. Here’s the kicker… you weren’t even protecting me. You were protecting yourself. If you’d given half a thought to me, you wouldn’t have said goodbye.

And it just feels like my insides are in this constant battle, where one part of me just wants to be happy, confident, fine without you. But the other part.. the other part just wants you to see just how you affect me, and exactly what you’ve done to me.

You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. I have missed you ever waking day, and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you’re doing, what we used to talk about, to laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this:no matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we’ve cried, never, ever did I give up on you. So if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach.

I deserve someone who actually gives a fuck about me because I’ve spent my entire life making other people happy when all they did was leave.

Chances are, I’ll never get a moment like this again, so here’s everything I ever wanted to tell you. No one has ever gotten me like you; I’ve never found anyone who makes me laugh like you. You’re the one person who I can honestly see myself happy with; the definition of love to me is you.

People ask me who am I. The answer? I don’t really know. A few years ago, I would have said I was a girl who loved life. A few months ago, I would have said I was a girl who loved a boy with everything she had. now, I guess you could say I’ve been through a lot and i’ve been broken in too many places and too many ways. I guess you could say i’m just trying to find my place.

Chances are, I’ll never get a moment like this again, so here’s everything I ever wanted to tell you. No one has ever gotten me like you; I’ve never found anyone who makes me laugh like you. You’re the one person who I can honestly see myself happy with; the definition of love to me is you.